Wednesday, May 12, 2010

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Hello hello everyone! Hope you are all having a wonderful day! Okay so I'm still doing pretty good with weight loss, it has slowed down since this weekend but that's fine! I've lost another .6 lbs so I'm at 298.2 I really want to get farther away from 300, it's scaring me! hahah! But I know I'll get there in time. And although it has slowed down a bit, I'm liking the way I'm looking in my clothes! every day it seems like there's a difference! I didn't take measurements right when I started this diet, and I wish I would have, but I did take them last Friday. I haven't decided if I'm going to measure every week, or every month. What do you all think? So I was driving home last night and a song came on the radio by a Christian band called Kutless and the song is called What Faith Can Do

Everybody falls sometimes. Gotta find the strength to rise. From the ashes and make a new beginning. Anyone can feel the ache. You think it’s more than you can take. But you're stronger, stronger than you know. Don’t you give up now. The sun will soon be shining. You gotta face the clouds. To find the silver lining.

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains. Hope that doesn’t ever end. Even when the sky is falling. I’ve seen miracles just happen. Silent prayers get answered. Broken hearts become brand new. That’s what faith can do.

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard. Impossible is not a word. It’s just a reason for someone not to try. Everybody’s scared to death. When they decide to take that step. Out on the water. It’ll be alright. Life is so much more. Than what your eyes are seeing. You will find your way. If you keep believing.

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains. Hope that doesn’t ever end. Even when the sky is falling. I’ve seen miracles just happen. Silent prayers get answered. Broken hearts become brand new. That’s what faith can do.

Overcome the odds. You don't have a chance. (That’s what faith can do). When the world says you can’t. It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains .Hope that doesn’t ever end. Even when the sky is falling. And I’ve seen miracles just happen. Silent prayers get answered. Broken hearts become brand new. That’s what faith can do. That's what faith can do! Even if you fall sometimes. You will have the strength to rise.

If you didn't read all the lyrics that's fine...but there were so many parts that jumped out to me that I had to put the whole thing down. So this song comes on and I start bawling! I want you guys to read at least these parts: Anyone can feel the ache. You think it’s more than you can take. But you're stronger, stronger than you know. Don’t you give up now. The sun will soon be shining. It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard. Impossible is not a word. It’s just a reason for someone not to try. When the world says you can’t. It’ll tell you that you can! I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains. Hope that doesn’t ever end. Even when the sky is falling. I’ve seen miracles just happen. Silent prayers get answered. Broken hearts become brand new. That’s what faith can do.


Okay so the first phrase in bold. How many of us, including me, say that we just can't take this anymore?! But like I've told so many of you, we are so much stronger than normal people. Normal people do not have to do what we do just to function on a daily basis! Thyroid problems are so lame! Gaining weight because of it is SO lame! But we can't give up! You guys, we will get there. "the sun will soon be shining"! The next phrase, my Doctor is ALWAYS telling me, "it is impossible for you to lose weight, so please don't try!" (which is why I'm not telling her about this diet) well, yes...I was definitely not losing weight any other way until I found this diet..but see it's obviously NOT impossible! and that goes with the next phrase...so many people are telling us we can't...and we are sending them a message that we can! The last phrase is the chorus...and it just really touches my heart. I hope this touches yours in some way too. Even if you aren't a Christian, I really think this still applies to all of us with thyroid/weight problems. Anyway I had to share that.

One last thing...since I'm on the topic of songs. My boss Jearl is so into my blog and this journey! Which is great! He came into my office yesterday totally excited and said, "I need you to get on the internet, go to youtube, type in Anna Nalick breath (2 am)". I know that song and love it but did NOT understand what he was getting at. So there was this one youtube video that had the lyrics with the song and he fast forwarded it and stopped it at this part and goes. This is what you're doing!!! The lyrics: "And I feel like I'm naked in front of a crowd, cause these words are my diary screaming out loud. And I know that you'll use them however you want to." And he's right. Things I'm telling you...before this almost no one knew (except close family). And my weight...was so embarrassing. I didn't know if anyone would even read my blog. So I put embarrassing photos of myself, and told you guys my life and struggles without knowing the outcome of all this. But I can tell you this, you guys have made the "alone" feeling disappear, you all give me so much encouragement and I feel so blessed. Thank you for everything. :)  Okay I'm done being emotional now, haha! Until next time!



16 comments:

  1. Hey Molly, Jen again from NZ.... thanks for your encouragement once again. I listened to that song and read the lyrics you had typed at the same time. So true! Reminds me of the verse "For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline" (2 Timothy 1:7)

    By the way, I have not got Mary's book as yet, but have ordered it from the library, so will keep you posted once I start on the journey! I will most probably need to buy the book!

    xxx

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  2. ps... great boss you have!!

    Jen, NZ

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  3. Molly,

    If I haven't told you yet, you are incredible! I love reading your blog because each time you're just so positive and such an inspiration (and good sound butt kick).

    Thank you for being so open, honest and true here. It's exciting to see we thysistahs (and thybros) can lose the weight and live happy "normal" (ha ha ha!) lives.

    Massive hugs and many thanks for being the awesome honest, beautiful person you are!

    Em

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  4. I love this post!! It is amazing what music and songs can do for someone. I am going to look this one up.

    I have been sticking to the diet (I need to start calling it my Life Change because I think I will have to eat like this for a long time.....not just to a certain point)and it is going well and I have a weight loss class and weigh-in today. I feel well and it is amazing to feel the difference from when I am eating right and then when I am not.

    Thank you!!!

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  5. Keep up the good work Molly! Its hard having thyroid problems but we can not let it define us!Your faith in God will see you through and will give you a deeper meaning in life. This blog is a great way to use your gift to be able to reach so many people. You have given so many people hope!
    Megan

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  6. Hi Molly! I just came across your story! I too struggle with Hypothyroidism, have for 14 yrs now. I recently went through a deep depression, I am a Christian so it sorta blind-sided me (that I could feel so hopeless). I was so beyond the pain that I quit my Armour Thyroid compound (previously on Levolthyroxin and Synthroid)cold turkey two weeks and two days ago. Strange enough, I no longer crave sugar or sweets at all. I have no clue however where my levels are at. I just want you to know that reading todays blog from you made me feel like I was reading about myself-what I would write exactly and how I feel about myself. Thank you for sharing and I DO believe with all my heart that this horrible weight gaining can be overcome. Perhaps it is the time of perserverance and to not allow ourselves or others to accept we will always be overweight. Before my thyroid went out of whack, I weighed a consistent 125lbs. I am not looking to weigh that again, I was MUCH younger and more active then. I just want to be what is healthy and right for me. Again, thanks for speaking out & reaching out. You did make a difference in someone's life today...mine. Tracy in FL

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  8. Molly I know that song I have heard it so many times!!! Have you ever heard of Mercy me? They have a song called "Word of God speak" it is such a beautiful song, so powerful! By any chance do you listen to K-LOVE? You know what before I found your blog I found myself Praying and praying and crying to God to please help me through these thyroid symptoms, honestly I was tired of feeling the way I was feeling and I just felt like crawling into a ball and just sleeping- I didnt want to keep on going I felt helpless, but I am a christian woman so I got down on my knees and pleaded with God to help me get thru all of this and you know what? I found your blog! By any chance are you Christian? Like I said in the begining when I first posted on your blog finding your blog has been a God send for me! Molly today I did good following the plan to a Tee and I am so proud of myself!!!!! Keep on going Molly I am so excited for you! I believe God is using you to help other like me!:) God Bless you!!!!

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  9. Jen -- that's a great verse thank you for sharing that! And let me know what's going on after you get the book!

    Em -- aww thank you so much! That was seriously the sweetest, it made my day!

    Breeda -- Oh man seriously the difference is crazy! When I ate pasta for my treat last weekend I couldn't believe how sick I felt after! And I always feel amazing after I my meals/snacks on the diet..err ahem..Life Change. (which is really is!) Let me know how the weigh in goes! I'm cheerin you on!

    Megan -- Thank you :) that was too sweet! And hey! I want you to keep me updated on your journey! I'm afraid one of these times I'll forget to ask!

    Tracy -- are you not on any meds at all right now? did the synthroid and levolthyroxin make you feel better than the Armour? You can do this! We all can. It's hard but we can and will overcome this! And we're all here for you :)

    Brenda -- okay can I start with you totally made me cry just now? :) I LOVE Mercy Me! I have that song on repeat on my iPhone it is seriously one of my all time favorites. I get emotional every time I listen to it! AND YES I DO LISTEN TO K-LOVE!!!!! Funny story: I'm always on the phone with my mom, dad or sisters when I'm driving so I don't listen to the radio that often. My mom and Dad just drove to Washington and were visiting family so I wasn't talking to anyone and started searching through the stations and found K-Love, that was just like...a week ago! And now it's always on in my car! Thank you for sharing that story with me...you are so wonderful! And I know that feeling of just not wanting to do anything. I understand completely, it's not fun. I'm so excited that you're doing so well on the diet! I'm praying for you, and again thank you :)

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  10. Oh and Brenda yes! I am a Christian! There's no way I could have gotten through my thyroid life without Him!

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  11. Molly-

    I just happen to bump into your blog when I was online researching hypothyroid. I had always been able to lose weight easily. I quit smoking back in November of 2009 and started an intense exercising and eating right routine. Normally, I would have lost weight daily. Well after 5 months of working out 5 days a week and eating right, I was only down 4 pounds. I went to my doctor who tested my thyroid and it came back 6.55. I don't even know what that means. And my doctor would only tell me that I would have to come back in 2 months to be retested. Anyway, in my search for answers as to what 6.55 meant, I found you. I'm not going to pretend that my situation is as advanced as yours, but I need to tell you how wonderful and inspiring I think you are. I bookmarked your blog and will check on you daily no matter what my situation is. You're strength is inspiring to anybody, thyroid problems or not. Good luck, you're going to make it, that much is clear. xo

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  12. by the way, my name is Wendy :o)

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  13. Hello Wendy welcome! I'm so excited you found my blog and are going to be coming back! In case you haven't gotten an answer yet, most likely (I'm 99% positive) 6.55 is your TSH levels. TSH = Thyroid Stimulating Hormone, and my specialist always says we want you to get anywhere between 1-3 (normal range). So yours is a little high which means you're hypothyroid. Some tests might say anywhere between .5-5 is normal. So it just depends on what youre Dr says. Did he/she put you on any medications? I'm hoping the best for you! And I know how frustrating 0 weight loss is! :(

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  14. Molly! I knew it I knew you were Christian see God works in Mysterious ways! He's an awesome God! I believe he led me to your blog for comfort! Well I didnt mean to make you cry!!!! lol! :) Well I have another question when you would go and see your Endo would he give you the results of your test? The one I previously saw never did, in fact most of the time I would end up seeing his nurse practioner! Just wondering please let me know! Oh, remember when you mentioned about how you dont like anything around your neck well I am the same way I cant stand anything on my or around my neck and t-shirts? ugggg! They feel as if they are suffocating me! Especially the crew neck ones...I always try to buy shirts that are v-neck. I feel bad too Cause my husband bought me a really nice T&Co. necklace that I rarely wear I do wear the bracelet but not the necklace. So your not alone in feeling the way you feel when it comes to having somthing around your neck! Thanks for your prayers I will definitely keep you in mine! God Bless! Remember- "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels"

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  15. Wow Molly God is sure using you! like brenda these last couple of weeks have been a real low for me, friends who know the real day to day up and downs have been praying real hard for me and asking that l would feel gods closeness to me l was feeling a bit out on a limb (dont often get like it)..well l found this week, a little picture l had painted when on a retreat years ago ( the church decided l needed to go ..!)infact l was probably worse then! l wished l could scan it to you.mad! l will email it..
    it says in big letters NO ONE LOVES YOU LIKE l DO words of a song that they had played at a talk..when you had passed through valleys low with no strength to persevere ..it was the that l drew near..
    l picked you up.set your feet on solid rock.its only now that your awhere that l was there..
    l give my word l will be close to those who need me most..
    for in those times when tears flow.it is then that tenderness,with tender care grows..
    like flowers need both joy and rain your heart needs both joy and pain...
    ive always known whats best for you...
    you alone are my strength my shield.to you alone may my spirit yeild.you alone are my hearts desire and l long to worship you....
    these are mixed up lines from the song l wrote around the picture..l was so pleased to find it again l showed my friends ,they were so pleased with the answer to prayer.. and that very afternoon l found your blog!
    and you took up the next round of encouragement..
    bless you for taking the time to carry on his work..another lifted christian blog reader!( london based!)

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  16. Brenda and Donna -- I must agree God works in very mysterious ways and always for the good. I'm so glad you guys found my site :)

    Brenda -- I am always given my test results verbally and on paper. Since I get my tests done very often they wanted me to see my Dr every time and I just can't afford that! So when I go I see my endo, but usually after the test my Drs nurse calls me to tell me the results and then sends it to me. But I'm okay with that because I asked for it. You definitely need to be able to see them! T&CO!!!! That's one of the necklaces from my hubbs too! I've always wanted one, so he bought me one and what happens? Can't wear them anymore! SO LAME! And I love that quote! haha I am so using that!

    Donna -- Oh I really hope you can e mail me that picture I would love to see it! I love those lines, they are SO encouraging! you guys make me feel so blessed :) Thank you for sharing that!

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