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Hello friends! Happy Monday :) How have you been? What's been going on? I'm very thankful for the time you guys gave me, it was so needed! I do not feel like I have to be back here now, I honestly couldn't wait to get back into the swing of things!

So I found out I had a miscarriage two weeks ago tomorrow, the heart had stopped and there was unknown fluid surrounding the baby. Wednesday my amazing mom came to Texas and Thursday we had the D&C. Having my Mom here with us made things SO much easier at the beginning. My husband took Tuesday off for the appointment, thankfully! Wednesday he got home at 1p, Thursday he took off and Friday it snowed out of nowhere so practically EVERYTHING in the Austin area was shut down and he didn't have to go work patrol :) It was really nice. They made sure I was always comfortable, my Mom made amazing foods and with her there it helped Cory and I not think about it too much. Unfortunately when she left that weekend we had to face it all and we had a very hard time. This is our 3rd miscarriage for those of you who don't know, but this is the only time we've seen anything on an ultrasound, and the only time we've heard a heartbeat. So it was much more difficult than the first two. Cory had to go back to work Monday (if you remember, my work replaced me when I was put on bedrest) And Monday was really bad for me. I cried practically the entire day and I was on the edge of a bad breakdown. It was actually scaring me. No I wasn't depressed, just didn't know how to coup.

Tuesday things started to get better, I decided to apply for a few jobs, but wasn't actively looking. I knew I needed some more time to myself. However I ended up getting an interview set up for Wednesday. I did that and came straight home. Thursday our lives changed drastically again! I had my follow up appointment from the surgery and we found out that it was most likely not an "unknown pregnancy" They think it was a partial molar pregnancy, where two sperm get into one egg and only create one baby. So there is too much DNA and there is no way for the baby to survive. Dr. said it had nothing to do with Cory, my thyroid or my weight! She said IF a woman ever has a partial or complete molar pregnancy it is incredibly rare for them to have another one. And she said I only have about a 5% chance of having another miscarriage. SO it was good news all around :)

Then as I'm leaving the appointment I get a call saying I got the job I had an interview for! They told me it would be full time and how much I would be making. When I figured out how much it would be a month I realized Cory and I could get the Townhome we've been wanting SO SO bad! I started my job on Friday -and I LOVE it so far!-  and we signed a lease for the Townhome on Saturday! It was incredible! Because of my job I won't be able to post blogs or respond until  I get home for the day. Just to prepare you ;)

Also, I started dieting again today! I was so ready to get back. Because of the 2nd and 3rd miscarriages (and how close they were together) I was eating SO much, and most of it wasn't good. I would eat anything I could find and I'm ashamed to say I gained most of my weight back. Without trying I lost 6 pounds in two days on Thursday and Fri to put me at 310, and out of no where yesterday I gained 5 pounds! I don't know how, all I had yesterday was a bowl of cereal, and then a bowl of soup last night! So this morning I weighed 315, which was really really hard to swallow, I was embarrassed of myself. BUT That was this morning and now I'm just happy that I'm finally doing something about it again! So I hope you'll support me in making this a lifestyle!

Anyway, that's all for now! I promise I will blog more regularly now. Until next time :)